i'm simply not in the christmas mood this year. what a big big difference! i'm guessing that i must have used up all the christmas spirits for the next 3 years during the christmas celebrations last year.

not many gifts were bought, i didn't feel excited at all and it just felt like another holiday. which is bad. i felt depressed over it. why am i not in the christmas holiday mood this year? why? why? why?

christmas is absolutely my favourite holiday of the year because of all the lights, presents, food and friends coming together. but can you believe it, i did not had any christmas dinner at all! *wails*

i even attended a funeral of a close friend's dad on christmas eve. how happy can i be? i feel really really really sad and sorry for her. its so so so scary as well. *sighs*

this year's christmas is a big disaster to me. its not that bad to all as the usual christmas bbq went on fine but to me its... ... ...

i started late, i didn't invite many people, i didn't cook anything unlike last couple of years where i will prepare pasta and stuffs and of course, the demise of my close friend's dad did play a part in making me feel life can be so fragile yet we always take it for granted. which kinda diminishes the festive mood a little.

my lost spirit made me not buy dar and regan a christmas present. kinda serious right! i did try to because i got off work very early on friday. thus, went to shop but the shopping centre was so freakingly packed that i left after like 15 minutes of shopping. how to buy anything you tell me?

i did not buy many presents actually. like a grand total of 6 (because they were compulsory - christmas dinner gift exchange)? and oh ya, plus 1 as i helped my colleague buy one for the branch christmas presents exchange.

but dar was sweet this year and got me a top. it was a surprise! i wasn't expecting anything lor. last few years nothing ma. pretty or should i say very touched.

i've got many pictures to post but dar just reformatted the pc and the bluetooth adapter is not installed yet. so that gotta wait ba. =P

my christmas break is a long one as i'm on off this couple of days but end up being construction worker at my dad's abode. imagine me hacking and dismantling and painting and climbing. haha... NO LA NO LA, i where got so li hai, i was just hanging around in the background watching dar do it. =)

wanted to extend my rest day for another day but too short-handed. i must grumble 'WHY cannot handle? WHY do you need me to be back? WHY you all do things so slow?' ok, i got that off my chest so at least tomorrow when i go in, i won't be pulling a long face.

hais, i still feel sad why i'm not in the festive mood on my most looking-forward-day of the year. i must do something about it next year. "tian ling ling, di ling ling, christmas spirit kuai lai ling ming nian yao lai ling!" hmmm, that should work! =D

maybe try to make up for it on new year's eve and day then. hee... anyone heard of a new year's present?